Wednesday, March 17, 2010

What would you do if you were me?

The week has caused me so much emotional pain, I wish my heart could stop beating.

Tell me, dear readers and strangers, what would you do if you were me?

I had scoliosis ever since primary school. Lucky for me, it was painless, i'm not physically impaired or had obvious bend/twist in my body. The only thing is my right hand shoulder blade is slightly protruding.

No matter what i wear or how straight i stand, from the back and side view, it looks like i'm abit hunched.

Because it's not a major problem, i was discharged from the frequent checkups and was not given any braces.

I met my guy in 2008 and he was fine with my condition. However, after visiting his hometown his neighbours and family started to gossip about my back & condition. And he cant stand the stress, comments and stares.

So eventually, he cant accept my condition as he claims that it looks ugly. I knew there are no cures for it since my condition is minor. Our relationship became rocky in mid 2009 till today with the fact that he still cant accept me for whatever i am.

He will be accompanying me to a TCM specialising in bone next Tuesday. Somehow, i know what the practitioner will say. And i know, it will decide on the fate on my relationship.

Should the relationship ends here? If you were me, would you let go and stop the emotional heart pain?

I thought loving someone is to accept whatever he/she is made of and whoever he/she is. =(
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Going forward. Just today, i started my ebay account and posted some items for bidding. You may take a look at what i've here. I hope it will bring me far and i do love E-commerce.

As expected, I only bought 2 items this week; Bonitochico's Floral Embossed Tea Frock and Victorian Cropped Cardigan.



If anyone is interested in getting the cardigan, go look for it! The quality is really good, soft and comfortable. Extremely good for our weather where it's hot and not anywhere near cold. Even my sister has one ( I have 2):



Do drop me a comment and let me know what you think about scoliosis. Or at least advise me on what a girl should do & how to be strong to move on.

5 comments:

lene said...

i feel dat if he really loves u, he wun care abt wat the others say.. moreover, he is fine wif it for abt a yr rite.. suddenly become sensitive wif ur imperfection is like shit lar. hes not perfect also lor.. go for the TCM only if u tink he truly care abt ur condition n u feel like going.. can c u dun feel like going lor.. or mayb u can go, den if the physician say cant help, c wat he'll say? hes a real jerk if he initiates a brk-up.

omg, i hate him =/

reb said...

jess, i think he's nt worth ur love n time. if he truly loves u, he wont mind abt wad other ppl sae.. like wad yf sae i dun c e need to go tcm with ur bf..move on and i believe u can find someone better..

tk care

Unknown said...

i was supposed to screen ur comment. But i realised that blogspot cant screen comments like livejournal do. =(

I think he didnt hear much good comments about me in China. But i think it's really unfair for them to judge someone by its cover. And i dont think they have the right to judge me..but then..i am unable to translate what i want to say into mandarin.

Actually..i dont think TCM can help. TCM can help if there's pain..but i dont have any pain. And one cant see the curve in my spine with bare eyes..they need x-ray. I just go and make him feel 'happy'.

Actually, he has been initiating a break up ever since Sept last yr, but i tried to convince him. And then he said he has accepted my problem, but 2-3 mths later..the same old thing will happen again cos he cant accept & stop noticing the 'ugly thing'.

lene said...

wtf?! initiate a break-up becos of dis?! omg, seriously maybe u shld just let go.. human r like dat, 失去了才懂得珍惜.. n c whether he really do treasure u n whether ur luv for him is worth it..

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God bless you.